i'm tired

of this shit...

do i deserve better, deserve better i do

have u ever loved and lost somebody...
wish there was a chance to say i'm sorry..
have u ever felt ur heart was breaking..
cause i loved and lost the day i let u go...
-haveyouever-

i am feeling really terrible right now...
horribly terrible...
why? can't answer that myself honestly...
well maybe i could but i just don't want too...
as idiotic as it may sound...
this feelings just eats me from the inside...
poop... shitty feelings...

will u think about the moments that we shared...
how we lived each day with no regrets...
nothing last forever though we (i) wanted to...
saying goodbye was the hardest thing to say...
i miss ur love in every way...
a true love never dies...
-saygoodbye-


it's been more than long enough since the damn day happened...
close to a year to be precise...
yet those thoughts still lingers in me...
as much as i miss them...
i was told to forget about it...
but i just can't...
#$%& this damn shit..

had a little chit-chat with the little man just now...
found out a few interesting things...
yet i was told "...honestly i think u deserve better..."
how better can i get when in me its only her that i think is the best for me...
maybe i do... her!!!

anywho...
one of my previous post is actually lyrics to a song...
hanya engkau yang mampu... by aizat...
for those who thought i actually wrote that i'm sorry u were fooled...
the reason i posted those lyrics are because of this shitty feelings...
i wonder how long more can i stand this... or even sit over it??
tell me someone...

once upon a time i was falling in love...
now i'm only falling apart...
every now and then i get lonely knowing ur no longer around..
i get nervous thinking of all those good times that have gone by...
-totaleclipsoftheheart-

enough and help the country by respecting the laws

with the country's economy somewhat stable world crude petrol prices soaring this is the time when we all should stick together and try to bring our nation out of this turmoil.
Malaysia ain't no longer the duduk atas pokok country. we have geniuses and billionaires living or originating from our country this is the time wen they all should come back and help their country.
i guess i am not the only one tired with the on going political bickering amongst our politicians. let not mention names from here onwards i hope u get who i am talking about.
MEMBERS OF PARLIAMENT @ MPs are the people where the rakyat elect once every four years as to be their voices to the country's administration. but as we see today are our voices and needs any longer their concerns? walking out of parliament as a show of protest what can they achieve here and are our lives made better? as it is we know that the parliament sits only 3 times a year. and if half the tme they are fighting over non related and non fundamental issues it us the rakyats are the ones at lost...
as we know there'll be a debate tomorrow between certain parties on the petrol hike issues. lets hope something can be achieved from this.
by the way this is how it should be done not have street protest and demos do it the civilised way.
last but not least... i know laws are made to be broken. but i guess that only applies to schools kids and college students. i gues its ok tho break the school and uni/coll rules but i must say its definately not ok to break the contries laws.
i may be no law student(though i hope to)... i am sure u guys are aware of the BALASUBRAMANIAM AND THE STATUTORY DECLARATION (sd) CASE... please tell the truth and don't run away from the cops if u know u are right!!! wats sd? i cant really explain it but i know its a sworn statement which u are laiable if there are conradictions in evidence... what shit!!!
u think this country suck? get the hell out of here!! we done need shit head citizens like u!!!

HANYA ENGKAU YANG MAMPU

Ku cuba redakan relung hati
Bayangmu yang berlalu pergi
Terlukis di dalam kenangan
Bebas bermain di hatiku
Cerita tentang masa lalu
Cerita tentang kau dan aku
Kini tinggal hanya kenangan
Kau abadi di dalam hatiku
Harusnya takkan ku biarkan engkau pergi
Membuat ku terpuruk rasa ingin mati
Derita yang mendera kapan akan berakhir
Hanya engkau yang mampu taklukkan hatiku
Cerita tentang masa lalu
Cerita tentang kau dan aku
Kini tinggal hanya kenangan
Kau abadi di dalam hatiku
Harusnya takkan ku biarkan kau pergi
Membuat ku terpuruk rasa ingin mati
Derita yang mendera kapan akan berakhir
Hanya engkau yang mampu taklukkan hatiku
Aku cinta ...
Harusnya takkan ku biarkan engkau pergi
Membuat ku terpuruk rasa ingin mati
Derita yang mendera kapan akan berakhir
Hanya engkau yang mampu taklukkan hatiku
Aku cinta...
Hanya engkau yang mampu taklukkan hatiku....

lunch with miss taz-mania...

today didn't start off so well for me as i had to wake up early and send the sister of to college for her professional exams. can't complain much though cuz i'am paid to do that... hmm... anywho... around noon had a lunch date with some friends and a teacher yang cukup muda to be our kakak. the lunch date was supposedly at 1.30. being a malaysian i arrived at 2.15, having to wait for the sister and pick up a few friends a long the way not forgetting the bloody lunchtime jam and no place to park!!! so forgive me guys if i was TINY-INY-WINY BIT LATE. only 7 of us turned up, it was planned by sha, oden and i think omar too. didn't expect many to turn up anyways. so it was the latter three, echah, halim, irsyad and i. so the meeting place was RESTAURANT REBUNG CHEF ISMAIL. you read that right alright. the restaurant is owned by the chef ismail and his PARTNER the cosmonaut dr sheikh muszaphar. now the real reason we met up was miss taz wanted to hand out invitation to her wedding. yeap!!! miss taz nak kawen dah... ngan abang giant... (forgive me bout that). i'm not sure wether we're supposed to know bout her wedding or not, but like the disney puppet sings "...it's a small world after all...". but the news some how got to us and miss taz terkejut badak when we found out... muahahaha... news travels fast nowdays with the likes of broadband, 3g and my mulut!!! heheh... so here are some pics of the afternoon... omar enter frame... miss taznim and shahdah
sha, miss taz and irsyad
omar makan bubur durian tak ingat dunia... mesti kentut dalam keta !!!
posing ngan invitation miss taz...
siapa nak kawen???

its been a while

i've been sitting rotting at home doing nothing since my last post. so really thats the reason why i've not posted anything here since the last one.
now lets see... current happenings..
my life:
still partly contemlplating of my future. yeap. you read it rite alright. part of me still wanna do SO SO SO SO... but another part wanna do SO SO SO SO.. so how do i answer people wen they ask what are you gonna do.. my answer would be SO SO SO SO.. haihz
that a side.. i'll be flying off end of the month... where.. hmmm.. bandung.. yup.. so adios amigos..

ambition

GOOD AMBITION

Teacher: "What do you want to become?"
Little Johnny: "A doctor!"
Teacher: "Why?"
Little Johnny: "Coz it's the only profession where you can tell a woman to take off her clothes and ask her husband to pay for it."