as time flies

as time flies,
confusion looms the mind,
its not the truth,
its not the thoughts,
nor was it the tick of the clock..

as time flies,
everything changes,
be it life or lives,
the world is constantly changing,
i may be who i am,
but it does not stop me from changing,
at least for the betterment from who i am,
then change me from who i am..

no one is denying ones wishes,
no one is denying ones selfishness,
all one is asking is for a try,
to make one a better person by being with thee..

here lies a plain white sheet of cloth,
waiting eagerly to be drawn upon,
why so eager?
only HE knows...

along came a stranger,
filled with colours of joy,
walking by the cloth filling it full with joy,

now the stranger is gone,
there'll be no more joy,


though it was just a spark,
its not the end,
please don loose the spark...
with hope it'll light in the end

as the year begins

its been a week since year 2 of my medical studies began...
alhamdulillah for this day to happen...
but not so alhamdulillah for starting it on the wrong foot...
new year, new obstacles, new problems same person...

first off..
respiratory system block...
anatomy classes this time round is with a new lecturer, AsscProf Dr Khin...
nice lady but extremely loud...
i still miss Prof Nasar though!!!
huhuhuhu...
nope not complaining...
hope to buck up soon and shift my gear faster as at the end of this year i'd be having my Pro's... Insyallah...

secondly..
H1N1 is really worrying me...
as i fall under the high risk category cuz i am asthmatic...
though i've not had a serious attack in over a year i am still cautious about it...

thirdlly...
the college has gone nuts...
nuts to the core of it...
why u may ask??
firstly... i am feeling that the students of the college are being used as lab specimens for some genius people to conduct a RM100K research on affective domain...
i am not saying its not a noble thing to do...
but it is in my opinion that we the students are the one who suffers...
first of all...
i don't think think the college as whole is steady enough to be standing on its own...
with everyone having their own agenda and no unity amongst the BIG people... have they ever considered or even thought of the consequences of their actions???
"NURTURING THE PASSION TO CARE"
"lu pikirlah lah sendiri wahai pembaca..."

secondly...
affective domain related still??
what are the objectives of the college??
to produce MEDICAL PROFESSIONALS...
yet their actions speaks otherwise!!!
what do i mean by this...
their implementing this new system which is similar to the NILAM project which we had to go thru during our schooling days...
again i tell u...
their going nuts!!
MAD...

thirdly...
DEMERIT SYSTEM...
yup... ur reading it rite i tell u...
i must say... the coordinators are so free to be judging everyone!!!
peer assesments.. pooop!!

sometime i feel they should change their motto...
from "nurturing the passion to care"
to " nurturing hypocrites of the future"


in other news....
Mom re-did the garden...
gave it a face lift la...
pics on the garden... nanti la eh..

sometimes some things are better left unsaid....

maybe it's true...
the above saying...
be it a lie or the real truth..

some things are better left unsaid..
at least for my part i know that now..
maybe the act of telling the truth was the wrong turn i took in this journey of mine..

regrets??
maybe a lil' on my part of the act..
but to have started or have had a companionship never would i regret..
selfishly thinking the attraction had grown to become an fondness..
maybe it was wrong of me to do so..

or was it the act of rushing?
i never rushed thou into anything..
only the act of pledging one's devotion to thou was all that was said..
and discreetly hoping for affection..

keep hoping is all i will wait for......

of telling the truth and being honest

"honesty is the best policy.."

ever heard of the above saying
i'm sure u have..
some private companies motto or something..
the MACC ke..
somewhere lah..
paling tak pun..
mak u penah cakap..
"tipu dosa.." or "kalu tipu nanti hidung panjang macam pinochio..."
something like that lah..
penah tak?

its true that being honest is a good thing..
yet at times it can bring bad omen to one..

for instance..
in a a marriage..
a husband accidentally got drunk and had a mishap with another lady...
wanting to be honest and truthful, hubby confesses to wife with clear conscience and saying sorry it was a mistake...
only finding to be greeted with an annulment document for breakfast..

another example..
friendship between a boy and a girl..
the girl, wanting to be honest to the guy confessing her real feelings and hope for the guy..
the outcome??
the girl being given the cold shoulder treatment and treated as if they never knew one another, whereas prior to the confession they were "like" best of friends...
the questions are:
-why the sudden change?
-is she ugly or not to his standard?
-is he scared of commitment?

the point is, why the sudden change..
why cant he just be truthful?
is it fair to be leaving the girl pondering where it all went wrong?
or
was it a mistake for her to confess to him?
...

my question to you is...
is honesty really the best policy in the situations above??
is it worth telling the truth and being honest only ending up hurting and getting yourself distraught??

O' someone,
do tell me,
where did it all go wrong?
why the sudden change?

of telling the truth and being honest

-CONTENT SOON TO BE UPLOADED-

ramblings

it's been a while since i actually wrote anything on this site...
apart from the last quote posting..
it's been a month long..

so here are some updates...
where i've been and why i've been neglecting my blog...
first and foremost...
the past month or so i've been busy with my short semester...
alahamdulillah.. it ended last week..
of the 3 papers i sat for i've cleared 2.. with one still pending-viva...
do pray for my success readers...

also the out the month..
i was entangled with an orientation program..
it was for the new foundation students...
nothing much to ramble there..
just another alhamdulillah for its success and thank you to the volunteers...

apart from college issues...
my mind has been boggling and playing with me...
i really cant put into words or maybe i dunno how to put them into words...
its not much or really a problem..
more like inner-self conflict..
its getting me really confused and making more white hairs grow on my head...
buhoo!!!!
maybe i am really loosing it this time...
loosing my mind...
hahahaha...

in other news...
some happy things have been happening to the people around me...
particularly to Farid... congratulations is all i can say...
really am happy for u... hope things work well for u...
its as good as sealed!!!~

i wonder when that would ever happen to me..
hmmm... still praying!!!

-to be continued-

random quote

"tears are meant to flow just as hearts are meant to be broken..."