i've lost it

i'm gone...
KAPUTS...
POOOFF...
SWOOSH...

i'm to young to be having midlife crisis...
i wanna live older then 42 please GOD...
so Jeen... bad diagnosis...
i dunno whats wrong with me too...
in my opinion...
the prognosis: bad

something is wrong with me

i've not been able to sleep at hnite this pass week or two...
i'm not lying... though i spend a whole dah at college i just don feel tired at nite...
my body has gone PHYSIOLOGICALLY wrong...
my mind is MENTALLY kaputs...
i need help...
really i do...
but i just cant speak out...
i don't think anyine believes me...
just look at the time of this posting...

oh god help me...

aarggh

i am loosing it...
i am..
why?
i dunno why..

the view from the 86th floor of klcc tower 1 looks great

why?

i've not been myself this past few dayS..

at least thats what i've been feeling..

i feel that everything is worthless..

i really dunno what has gotten into me..

could be studies?

could it be life?

maybe it's just me..

i feel the world is rejecting me..

i feel myself rejecting me...

why?

why?

why?

i hate this feeling..

it's eating me from the inside!!

where did i go wrong?

what have i done wrong?

tell me life..

tell me world..

what is it that u have against me?

is it u?

maybe it's u?

no, u?

aargh...

FUCK LIFE!!!