frustration looms

as finals for NS awaits me this friday...
i sit here in front of my screen reminiscing in my mind of my own personal frustrations...
what is there to be frustrated about??
we'll... everything ... simple isn't it??
no its not that i am not thankful for all that i got...
i am... but i just feel enough is enough...

i need to re-shape myself, my character me as whole...
i think i've been tread on for far toooooo long...
i will no longer want that to happen..
putting others needs above my own...
and putting others first in all aspects before myself...

i've had it...
i think i am gonna be like those stuck up idiots who only care for themselves...
call me idiot for all u like...
i'd like to feel what its like to live in my own world...
disregarding all that the world has to say.. just moving on and doing things as i like....
i am onli changing to better my own self needs...

selfish....
i know it does sound very selfish@self centered...

so what am i to do???

owh... damn u bloody shit feelings...
i so dislike u...

i wish i had noo feelings for anything...
maybe that way i can be happy...

played like a fool...

i am the fool...
hahahaha...
i got myself into shit...
HOLY deep shit..
not the first time tho'...
but i really dunno how to get out of it this time... haihz...

took a ride that went round and round and round...
ending up nowhere...
pffffttttt.......

500 days of summer

as most may already its a movie... DUH!!!
so yea...
all i wanna say is that...
the movie really means a lot to me...
why..
cuz it pretty much reflects me...
the past...
and THE PRESENT...