Thursday, August 11, 2011

in the midst of all the havoc....

i've been short of time lately...
meaning to say time has gotten the better side of me...
leaving me to always rush for things...
haihzzz...

first off...
i missed out on my end of semester 6 or year 3 holiday...
not to say miss out totally, but its just that i felt it wasn't utilized properly....

the first week of holidays...
i had plan to settle thing before leaving for umrah...
but as fate had its way...
Tok Burn fell sick and was admitted to Selayang Hospital...
he started off purging and somehow developed pneumonia...
at 83 or is 84, pneumonia can be life threatening...
so yea... my days were wasted... well not nice lah to say wasted...
lets say... i spent quality time at the ward with Tok Burn who was delirious half the time of not three quarter...

speaking of umrah...
my 2nd and 3rd week of holidays...
i went to for umrah....
it was a really good experience...
like REALLY GOOD....
my time there... all i had to do was think about going for prayers and waiting for time to eat...
other wise there is nothing to worry about...
though prior to the event...
i somewhat was a lil scared...
though part of me was excited...
but fear got the better side of me...

i was excited because i was finally able to achieve something that i've always wanted to do...
which is go Mekkah...
it has always been my dream to be able to be His visitor at a young age...
at a tender age where i was still a good boy...
but guess that didnt happen...
dah terlanjut usia baru nak pegi jumpe tuhan...
bila dosa dah bertimbun,,,
ish ish ish...

oh well i'm still glad i went though it was later then i hped it would have been...
Alhamdulillah...
it was good...
the first time seeing Ka'abah at 12 am Mekkah time...
i was shiverng to my core when i walked towards Masjidil Haram...
questions was and doubts were filling my mind...
questions like....
will i actually get to see the ka'abah...
or will He test me and blind me from seeing it...
you all those fears of hearing peoples experience...

but Alhamdulillah...
there IT was...
the Holy Black Structure...
after stepping into Masjidil Haram...
a sense of calmness and "kesayuan" filled this soul...
a few steps further in... and i fell to my knees...
i may have dropped a tear or two...
but the feeling was just incredible...
Masya-Allah!!!!
there i was... the feeling of wanting to break down and cry...
wow it was just incredible beyond words...

over 11 days plus there i managed to perform only 4 umrahs...
x larat... as it was my first time...
i managed to witness the washing of kaabah... not the change of kelambu...
but just an annual event where the Mayor of Makkah inspects the inside of kaabah...
i was able to witness the kaabah door open..
Alhamdulillah praise be to Him Allah swt...

Insyallah...
i tried to pray for all those who pesan their prayers...
ade yg mintak jodoh...
mintak permudah segala urusan...
mintak kawen cepat...
etc... etc...
whether He answers and terima my prayers...
itu, wallahualam...

of course i prayed myself too la...
hahahah....

ok thats all...
adios...
see my fb for some Makkah picts...