goodbye 2008... hello 2009

another year will leave us and we're bound to welcome another...

many people would reflect on the year that they'll be leaving and ponder on the mistakes or the should have  moments including me.. i usually would but not this time... i'll just do a brief reflection and my new years resolution..

overall the year has been somewhat filled with pathetic and memorable sad and and happy events..

amongst the pathetic events that i've crossed in the year 2008 is meeting with an accident, meeting real gays... i repeat meeting real gays... YUCKS... lesbian are acceptable though... many more to even think off i'll add them to the blog as i remember...

memorable happy... hmmm... truth be told... none... getting into medical school?? or finally starting medical school... it may be memorable... but happy, i'll have to question myself again... so in conclusion i don't think i have any happy memorable moments this year..

memorable and sad... the passing of a dear grand aunt, opah teh.. she died on the very last week of puasa.. with days to go till raya, THE ALMIGHTY ALLAH S.W.T called her to lay to rest.. 

another pathetic events that i would label memorable worthy of me remembering... BARISAN NASIONAL loosing the majority 2/3 in the March 8 elections... why pathetic? i think malaysians have been delusion by a certain Datuks words of promise.. some call it the political awakening... i call simple stupidity of unfulfillable promises yet a lesson to the BARISAN NASIONAL coalition..

ok.. enough reflection...

2009 resolution...

1: to do well in  MAD-SCHOOL (medical school)

2: to get a scholarship 

3:to strive non-academically in all aspects

4:to improve social life 

5:hopefully be a better muslim

6: try be more tolerant with parents and siblings

7: HOPE FOR HER TO COME BACK

THINGS TO LOOK FORWARD TO IN 2009...

1: UMNO elections and other political party elections

2: defect in the opposition coalition

3: a more peaceful malaysia

4: someone BOMBING THE WHOLE OF IS-REAL

5:and all other good things

last but not least...

thank you GOD for a somewhat colorful 2008..

do bless me and my family and the ones i love in this coming year..

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE READING THIS BLOG....

it's true

worst four weeks of medical school yet

i've just completed another block of my medical school... the biochemistry block... aargh... it was horrendous... honestly i dunno what i learnt thru out the 4 weeks.. maybe a bit on nutrition... i just hope i don't fail it... next up is pathology..

in other news, we just had our sports day finals.. red house came in 3 overall... i won a gold for football and silver for futsal...

enough of college... nothing to talk about social life..

two months abandon...

it's been close to 2 month since i last updated this blog.. no real or other reason why except for busy... the recent block that ended was physiology.. introductory medical physiology... it was a real challenging block yet interesting... reason being Prof Hamdan was teaching... he's tough yet a nice man... 

on the other hand... a certain DR in the college has officially declared war with me... the "DR. COMPUTER KAMU ROSAK"... figure it out...

raya has ended too... huhuh... duit raya collection, hmmmm... macam economy status dunia gak la... menurun....

here are some pics that happened thru out the past month i've been away from this blog

 

the most controversial picture during raya  celebration : i and diyana
with the chief mafia and suraya hani : chief mafia is on my left
macam nampak hantu jer!!! actually takut ngan maddy... atiq is on my right


at prof 'h' punya open house... those are all my dear boys...

MORE PICS TO COME...

the car is back

got my car back a week ago thank god for that...
but a lil bit of slack tho... one side looks new the other looks old... damn... oh well
anther block is coming to an end which means another finals is coming end of this week..
behavioural science has been some what interesting...

enuf of college stuff.. boring..

so here's a song that i've been playing over and over...
As we talk the golden mile
Down the pretty aisle
I know that you are mine
And theres nothing in this world
That I know that I wont do
To be near you everyday
Every hour every minute
Take my hand and let me lead the way
All thru your life
Ill be by your side
Till death do us part
Ill be your friend
My love will never end
Till death do us part
When I wake up everyday
With you lying in my arms
I wonder if Im dreaming
When I look into your eyes
I just cant believe its true
That my heart belongs to you
Baby you can have it all
Take my hand and let me lead the way
All thru your life
Ill be by your side
Till death do us part
Ill be your friend
My love will never end
Till death do us part
Therell be good times
And therell be bad
But I will stand beside you woman
All the wayAnd thru the years
As life goes on
When snow will fall on winter nights
Ill keep you warm inside
Yeah baby I will
All thru your life
Ill be by your side
Till death do us part
Ill be your friend
My love will never end
Till death do us part

one down...10921083083 to go..

it's been a month already? gosh time really flies huh?

oh well i've completed my first month of medical school with 198219839837493 more months to go.. hahah..

lets share some of the experiences here..

so the first block was GENERAL ANATOMY with the funniest Prof as of now... PROF NASARUDIN ABD AZIZ aka PROF NASAR.. at first it was OK until the SCLs started to get more and more..more SCLs=LESS SLEEP.. my record for the month was 2 sleepless nite... hurrah!!cant or shouldn't complaint though... it is med school... MAD school...half or should i say 3/4 of the day is spent at the college.. balik rumah just to tukar baju and mandi... classes start at 8 latest till 5.. then balik mandi by 8 back to college till bout 1 or 2 am.. with ping pong games with the cadaver in between... De-stress... thursday nites are "CLUBBING" NITE cuz fridays are exams day.. aargh.. so thats about it i guess... oh well of course there are side activities which need not be mentioned here but very minimal.. VERY MINIMAL...

FINALS FOR THE BLOCK WAS YESTERDAY..

IT WAS S*&T...

PRAYING FOR THE BEST...

IN OTHER NEWS...

i met with an accident..

partially my fault for moving too slow...

damn... too slow!! ya...

i also kena my first saman!!! RM 300.. WTF???

HERE ARE SOME PICS OF THE OUTCOME...

the fella who langgar-ed me punya kereta

my car kena pintu passenger side

my first saman... hahah...

date:04/09/08

issued by: sjn abd rashid ali 104493

issue no: af421012

again its been a while

the feelings are still there. it just can't go away. forgive me for the lack of updates. its been quiet a while. i have been busy through out that while actually. enough with busy-ness.



i've moved on to the next stage of my life for now. it all started last thursday. fear and confusion still lingers in me, yet i can't justify why? this is the path i've choosen for this stage of life. i pray that its the rite path because i can't be sure that it is. i've heard of the worse, yet i dunno and i've not prepared myself for it. damn. why?



i am back to the environment where i once used to be, a familiar environment. but much has changed. people have changed. but the feelings haven't.

traumatised

GAYS ARE A DISGRACE TO THE MANKIND ESPECIALLY MEN...

LESBIANS ARE ACCEPTABLE...

HMM...

i'm tired

of this shit...

do i deserve better, deserve better i do

have u ever loved and lost somebody...
wish there was a chance to say i'm sorry..
have u ever felt ur heart was breaking..
cause i loved and lost the day i let u go...
-haveyouever-

i am feeling really terrible right now...
horribly terrible...
why? can't answer that myself honestly...
well maybe i could but i just don't want too...
as idiotic as it may sound...
this feelings just eats me from the inside...
poop... shitty feelings...

will u think about the moments that we shared...
how we lived each day with no regrets...
nothing last forever though we (i) wanted to...
saying goodbye was the hardest thing to say...
i miss ur love in every way...
a true love never dies...
-saygoodbye-


it's been more than long enough since the damn day happened...
close to a year to be precise...
yet those thoughts still lingers in me...
as much as i miss them...
i was told to forget about it...
but i just can't...
#$%& this damn shit..

had a little chit-chat with the little man just now...
found out a few interesting things...
yet i was told "...honestly i think u deserve better..."
how better can i get when in me its only her that i think is the best for me...
maybe i do... her!!!

anywho...
one of my previous post is actually lyrics to a song...
hanya engkau yang mampu... by aizat...
for those who thought i actually wrote that i'm sorry u were fooled...
the reason i posted those lyrics are because of this shitty feelings...
i wonder how long more can i stand this... or even sit over it??
tell me someone...

once upon a time i was falling in love...
now i'm only falling apart...
every now and then i get lonely knowing ur no longer around..
i get nervous thinking of all those good times that have gone by...
-totaleclipsoftheheart-

enough and help the country by respecting the laws

with the country's economy somewhat stable world crude petrol prices soaring this is the time when we all should stick together and try to bring our nation out of this turmoil.
Malaysia ain't no longer the duduk atas pokok country. we have geniuses and billionaires living or originating from our country this is the time wen they all should come back and help their country.
i guess i am not the only one tired with the on going political bickering amongst our politicians. let not mention names from here onwards i hope u get who i am talking about.
MEMBERS OF PARLIAMENT @ MPs are the people where the rakyat elect once every four years as to be their voices to the country's administration. but as we see today are our voices and needs any longer their concerns? walking out of parliament as a show of protest what can they achieve here and are our lives made better? as it is we know that the parliament sits only 3 times a year. and if half the tme they are fighting over non related and non fundamental issues it us the rakyats are the ones at lost...
as we know there'll be a debate tomorrow between certain parties on the petrol hike issues. lets hope something can be achieved from this.
by the way this is how it should be done not have street protest and demos do it the civilised way.
last but not least... i know laws are made to be broken. but i guess that only applies to schools kids and college students. i gues its ok tho break the school and uni/coll rules but i must say its definately not ok to break the contries laws.
i may be no law student(though i hope to)... i am sure u guys are aware of the BALASUBRAMANIAM AND THE STATUTORY DECLARATION (sd) CASE... please tell the truth and don't run away from the cops if u know u are right!!! wats sd? i cant really explain it but i know its a sworn statement which u are laiable if there are conradictions in evidence... what shit!!!
u think this country suck? get the hell out of here!! we done need shit head citizens like u!!!

HANYA ENGKAU YANG MAMPU

Ku cuba redakan relung hati
Bayangmu yang berlalu pergi
Terlukis di dalam kenangan
Bebas bermain di hatiku
Cerita tentang masa lalu
Cerita tentang kau dan aku
Kini tinggal hanya kenangan
Kau abadi di dalam hatiku
Harusnya takkan ku biarkan engkau pergi
Membuat ku terpuruk rasa ingin mati
Derita yang mendera kapan akan berakhir
Hanya engkau yang mampu taklukkan hatiku
Cerita tentang masa lalu
Cerita tentang kau dan aku
Kini tinggal hanya kenangan
Kau abadi di dalam hatiku
Harusnya takkan ku biarkan kau pergi
Membuat ku terpuruk rasa ingin mati
Derita yang mendera kapan akan berakhir
Hanya engkau yang mampu taklukkan hatiku
Aku cinta ...
Harusnya takkan ku biarkan engkau pergi
Membuat ku terpuruk rasa ingin mati
Derita yang mendera kapan akan berakhir
Hanya engkau yang mampu taklukkan hatiku
Aku cinta...
Hanya engkau yang mampu taklukkan hatiku....

lunch with miss taz-mania...

today didn't start off so well for me as i had to wake up early and send the sister of to college for her professional exams. can't complain much though cuz i'am paid to do that... hmm... anywho... around noon had a lunch date with some friends and a teacher yang cukup muda to be our kakak. the lunch date was supposedly at 1.30. being a malaysian i arrived at 2.15, having to wait for the sister and pick up a few friends a long the way not forgetting the bloody lunchtime jam and no place to park!!! so forgive me guys if i was TINY-INY-WINY BIT LATE. only 7 of us turned up, it was planned by sha, oden and i think omar too. didn't expect many to turn up anyways. so it was the latter three, echah, halim, irsyad and i. so the meeting place was RESTAURANT REBUNG CHEF ISMAIL. you read that right alright. the restaurant is owned by the chef ismail and his PARTNER the cosmonaut dr sheikh muszaphar. now the real reason we met up was miss taz wanted to hand out invitation to her wedding. yeap!!! miss taz nak kawen dah... ngan abang giant... (forgive me bout that). i'm not sure wether we're supposed to know bout her wedding or not, but like the disney puppet sings "...it's a small world after all...". but the news some how got to us and miss taz terkejut badak when we found out... muahahaha... news travels fast nowdays with the likes of broadband, 3g and my mulut!!! heheh... so here are some pics of the afternoon... omar enter frame... miss taznim and shahdah
sha, miss taz and irsyad
omar makan bubur durian tak ingat dunia... mesti kentut dalam keta !!!
posing ngan invitation miss taz...
siapa nak kawen???

its been a while

i've been sitting rotting at home doing nothing since my last post. so really thats the reason why i've not posted anything here since the last one.
now lets see... current happenings..
my life:
still partly contemlplating of my future. yeap. you read it rite alright. part of me still wanna do SO SO SO SO... but another part wanna do SO SO SO SO.. so how do i answer people wen they ask what are you gonna do.. my answer would be SO SO SO SO.. haihz
that a side.. i'll be flying off end of the month... where.. hmmm.. bandung.. yup.. so adios amigos..

ambition

GOOD AMBITION

Teacher: "What do you want to become?"
Little Johnny: "A doctor!"
Teacher: "Why?"
Little Johnny: "Coz it's the only profession where you can tell a woman to take off her clothes and ask her husband to pay for it."

random

mahathir quits umno? what happen to DULU KINI DAN SELAMANYA? hmmm... oh well.. thats politics people.. nothing is certain, frens can be enemy and enemy can be buddies...

malaysia lost the football pitched sized island to kiasus'.. now that is stupid... hello? as it is now they are doing reclamation of land and see the effects on johor? banjir macm nak kiamat... memang dah dekat pon actually... hahah... YA ALLAH!!! APE AKU BUAT NI? X SEDAR DIRI LAGI... DAMN... how can they forgot that they gave it away in 1953?? melayu mmg mudah lupa... ish ish...

birthday celebration in parliament... for a 6 years old... damn... such a stupid thing... just because daddy in jail can celebrate in parliament... the parlaiment is the AUGUST HOUSE... NOT THE CLUB HOUSE? GILA PPL

lingam inquiry... now thats news to follow... since altantuyas' case is going nowhere lets change our attention to the CORRECT..CORRECT..CORRECT fella... will justice prevail or will some quarter say... saya dah lupa... and the quote goes... melayu mudah lupa... it takes another monkey to know another... agree?

baju kurung too sexy... now now... please explain... well the white top may be... may be.. slightly transparent but what the hell... its the student perogative that she wants to reveal it!! agree?? boys in school mut be njoying it... hmmm... they'll be lying if they say they don't... suggetions anyone?? mine would be tukar colour baju dengan kain... baju biru kain putih... onli for baju kurong ok!!! pinafore cannot!!! imagine it urself... as it is there are some teachers i know who does upskirting... now now... be careful there

in other news... nothing much... except for I've grown another year older...

20!!!

so i turned 20 last night... mot much of a celebration went on as i had to attend a cousins wedding... but there i actually got t cut a birthday cake together with my aunt who shares the same birthday with me...

WHY DOES IT HAPPEN?

it can happen to anyone of us,
anyone u think off,
anyone can fall,
anyone can hurt someone they love,
hearts will break,
cuz i made a stupid mistake....

quote by BELLA: going to a club and not hitting on any chicks is like going to a buffet and not eating

kanvas

mans ego... enuf said

goodbye

I can see the pain living in your eyes


And I know how hard you try


You deserve to so have much more


I can feel your heart and I simpathize


And I'll never criticize


All you've ever meant to my life


I don't want to let you down


I don't want to lead you on


I don't want to hold you back


From where you might belong



You would never ask me why


My heart is so disguised


I just can't live a lie anymore


I would rather hurt myself


Than to ever make you cry


There's nothing left to say but goodbye



You deserve the chance at the kind of love


I'm not sure i'm worthy of


Losing you is painful to me



You would never ask me why


My heart is so disguised


I just can't live a lie anymore


I would rather hurt myself


Than to ever make you cry


There's nothing left to try


Though it's gonna hurt us both


There's no other way than to say goodbye

-air supply goodbye-

it's been a month since i last wrote anything on this blog... honestly i haven't been doing anything interesting this past month... haihz... except playing the above song over and over and over...

does love forever exist?? or do they come and go??

gp

malaysia has successfully completed its 10th edition of the formula one gp on the 23rd of march 2008 which was won by kimi raikonen!!! bless him for more races... anywho i was lucky to be there thanks to a fren name MELVINDER ... thanks dude... nothing much to say about the race... i would have had alot to say if it had rianed in depang but instead it rained in pj... poop...
Anyyyywhooo.... yesterdays race was my first time ever watching f1 live apart from at home on tv on a comfy sofa... i must say it was worth the price... the sounds of the engine were superb... though it can actually burst your ear drums... but thank god for ear plugs... it really a one of a kind sound.... here are some random pics i took... sorry bout the quality my camera ain't as canggih as Emans or Kinz...

elections

so the 12th general election which was held on saturday the 8th of March has passed... well muuch comment can be made fro the outcome but its really not my job to do the analysis but let me just share some of my thoughts here... much speculations were made before the elections... such a swing of votes which true enuf happened.. why many or shall i say there are a few groups of ppl who are dissatisfied with the recent happenings in malaysia... such as.. petrol price hike.. hindraf and what no... honestly voters... if u elect for the opposition do u really think that they can bring the price down? settle the racial issues? i personally dont think so... where are they gonna get the funds? as it is now our gonernment is already subsidising a substatial amount for our petrol... the person who we should be blaimng for this petrol hike is really the BLOODY USA... the are the one in control of th eworld petrol price because they are a self- proclaim world power... they should also add terrorist to ther self claiming titles too... with free education for the young gen today.. what more can we ask for? on the racial issue...
per se.. if the opposition was to really become the government... that would mean that ANWAR OR HADI would be the PM... why not KIT SIANG u may ask... well if i am not wrong... in the malaysian constitution... it states that the pm must be a malay... please don get me wrong here... but i think its a fair constitution considering that malaysia was once TANAH MELAYU... i am not being racist here... lets just think ok... if HADI(PAS) was PM... boys and girls... there goes ur late night clubbing... LIANG ZHI, say goodbye to ur BEERS... shopping malls? they might make diff timing for male and female shoppers... there goes ur pak to-ing places... if ANWAR (PKR) PM... he'll probably take loan from the world bank and screw the world bank president... the increase of opposition in the parliament may be a good thing... now the BN cant simply make decissions in parliament... nazri can stop all his cock talks...less corruption hopefully and more hotter debates are expected... and... more east malaysian ministers too... wow... well thats all i would like to say for now... leave a comment on what u think ok... now lets see some pics i took on election day...


barisan national flag.. BN consist of: UMNO, MCA, MIC, Gerakan, PPP plus some sabah sarawak party...
party keadilan rakyat.. formerly keadilan onli until they merged with party rakyat malaysia... thats why got red on the side of the flag...
some police officers on duty incase of riot... who knows...
this is suruhanjaya pilihan raya (spr) record off all the voters in the seri setia area... thats where my dad is registered...

u've seen it... cant go beyond this border... well its only in the classroom.. whats inside the classroom?? here...polling station where voters cast their vote... if u see carefully... a transparent box... thats where u place ur ballot paper... its the first time their using it... reason? TO BE TRANSPARENT... SCREW SPR... i am not campaigning for any party here but what i have just written are mere innocent opinion of a 20 year old boy... for those who will be legal to elect in the next election... vote wisely in 2012 or 2013...

house broken into but earlier got new shoe

came home today around 5 o'clock after receiving a call from my dad my house was broken into... i was shocked thinking they would have stolen my laptop and other gadgets like my ipod and camera....the front door seemed fine to me i thought my dad was just joking until i saw my bedroom... the entered throuh my sisters bathroom window...
they cut the grills and climbed in see the broken grills on the floor?
the hole which they entered from... big enough to fit doraemon... i think liang zhi too can go through... heheh... sorry boy... see the hole above...
my parents bedroom was the worst of the three... thank god my mom don kepp any jewelleries... i guess they must have been frustrated but they stole my dads nokia 1110(torchlight phone).. and laptop... blardy idiots...

my room second worse... they stole my speaker and ipod...

the f+*&ers took my air-con remote too... idiots... thank god i kept my collections in a safe place... muahahah my laptop was safe too under my blanket...

thank you god!!!

my moms bedroom door... it was locked they must have used a crobar to get through this solid door...

anyways earlier in the day i got myself a new shoe... which can used with the ipod jogging tracker... now my bloody ipod gone left shoes oni... HAIHZ...