HYPOCRITES

u are 1...
i am 1...
and so is every 1...

1 MALAYSIA!!!

frustration looms

as finals for NS awaits me this friday...
i sit here in front of my screen reminiscing in my mind of my own personal frustrations...
what is there to be frustrated about??
we'll... everything ... simple isn't it??
no its not that i am not thankful for all that i got...
i am... but i just feel enough is enough...

i need to re-shape myself, my character me as whole...
i think i've been tread on for far toooooo long...
i will no longer want that to happen..
putting others needs above my own...
and putting others first in all aspects before myself...

i've had it...
i think i am gonna be like those stuck up idiots who only care for themselves...
call me idiot for all u like...
i'd like to feel what its like to live in my own world...
disregarding all that the world has to say.. just moving on and doing things as i like....
i am onli changing to better my own self needs...

selfish....
i know it does sound very selfish@self centered...

so what am i to do???

owh... damn u bloody shit feelings...
i so dislike u...

i wish i had noo feelings for anything...
maybe that way i can be happy...

played like a fool...

i am the fool...
hahahaha...
i got myself into shit...
HOLY deep shit..
not the first time tho'...
but i really dunno how to get out of it this time... haihz...

took a ride that went round and round and round...
ending up nowhere...
pffffttttt.......

500 days of summer

as most may already its a movie... DUH!!!
so yea...
all i wanna say is that...
the movie really means a lot to me...
why..
cuz it pretty much reflects me...
the past...
and THE PRESENT...

burying the hatchet

as many may notice of the latest political hoohaa involving 2 political party of our country..
i'd like to jot down my opinion here regarding the on going hoohaa...

first off...
2 political figures who were once enemies have buried the hatchet...
now that is something that we done see everyday...
is this an honest truce and for their on political convenience?
or is temporary pact to fight the so called 3rd force amongst them?
it could also be just superficial that they shake hands in front of the press yet the bickering continues behind the scene...
who's to know??
in my opinion... the deserved leader is an honest man... yet he, as he himself claimed that he was back stabbed by his own men... i do believe his words... since his election he has promoted transparency and practiced honesty without favoring anyone regardless...
again this is politics... a world where anything can happen...
i literally mean anything...
so will they be able to solve their internal conflict??
or will ROS investigation outcome makes it otherwise??
lets just wait and see...
i sure do hope the outcome is something favorable...
cuz should it not...
the "war" within the party may prolong...

maybe until even when i take over... heheheh
now that's gonna my challenge in the future...

ELSEWHERE...
appointing and outsider to lead...
this news is the dumbest i have heard...
oh well i cant really say that cuz another political party is practicing it too..
but this is even more ridiculous because ridiculous because the appointed leader is all the way from across the the sea from another state...
i hope u understand what i am trying to say...
ok ok... i give u clue lah...
SABAH...
enough said...
the action taken by the de facto leader, in my opinion is a rather stupid one...
its like ur sending a baboon to correct the mistakes of a chimpanzee...
i'm sure the chimpanzees are smart enough to sort out their own troubles...
need they the help of a baboon??
i am so totally against them i am sorry...
yet i thank them for their existence to keep the government on their toes...
haihz...
whats to happen to malaysia man??
o'ALLAH...
give these people some guidance...

i've actually got more to ramble and criticize on them...
but since my stomach sudah bising i'd rather not....
next time maybe...
ciaoz...
thank you for reading my blog:
naveen kabilan and yan chyi...
wakakakakak

friendship

I was reading a a blog the other day regarding friendship...
I must say i was touched...
But then i asked myself...
How many of us cherish the friendship we have with our colleagues, friends, pal or whatever u call it?
What is it?
What does it mean?


Do i cherish and appreciate my friends?
Do my friends appreciate me?
If they do, how much?
Are all these questions relevent?
Are all the appreciation important to show how much your friend appreciate you?

To my friends who are reading this...
I'm sorry i cant write a testimonial on each and everyone of you...
But i wanna u all to know, that for u all to accept me as a friend is something i appreciate very much!!!
Very much...
And no words can explain my gratitude appreciation towards u all..

raya...

antara design2 ang-pau raya tahun nih...

dari semuae bank dan comapny yang ade...

aku rasa inilah design ang-pau yang paling menyerlah...

oleh KEMENTERIAN KESIHATAN MALAYSIA...

update pasal raye nanti eh

what if...

what if...

one day when someone u care for...

lies to you...

and leave you...

would you be happy or sad???

the fact that the person has come to ur life...

the person has made me happy...

i'd be thankful...

for having met that person...

for fate is charted by us...

it's HE who writes our destiny...

something the LORD needs...

the LORD needs a LADY....
to be by his side thru ups and downs...
thru sorrow and cheers...

it's true...
the LORD needs a LADY to be by his side...

sometimes

HE gave us the sun to shine our day...
but HE can take it away...
replacing it with rain and storm...
wondering where it has gone...
only to find a bright colourful rainbow...

lain daripada yang lain...

dia...

dia tuh lain...

lain daripada yang lain...



dia bijak...

dia berprinsip...

dia beragama...



dia..

tidak pernah ku kenali...

tidak pernah ku temui...

namun ada sesuatu yang ku kagumi...

dia...

prof rasheeeeeeeddddd.......

some quotes from todays class...

" you all are a bunch of walking embolus..."

"pagi tadi tak minum annmum ke?..."

"full blood count... untuk kira level budu and chincalok dalam darah..."

"telinga kamu berdesing sebab malaikat balling pen dekat telinga kamu..."

sushi... yuuummmmssss....

fridays are really killing me i tell you!!!

why you may ask...

hmmm...

its not only because of the weekly assesment...

but also this...

eating sessions...

makan besar...

hahahaha...

dengan orang yang besar...

well actually best jugak la...

the past 3 fridays or so i've been digging my pocket deep to satisfy my hunger...

its not always that i do this...

only when i'm under alot of pressure or stress...

so in this case would be stress la kot...

i've been going to this particular place 2 weeks straight now...

with these 2 loyalist of mine who would ever willingly teman me makan...

hahahah...

who are they??first off... POJI....

siket siket siket... his favourite quote to pow makanan orang...


next off... FARID...
the prodigal son...
hahahaha..
why?
dunno... simply say...

poji diligently cooling his noodle...

some chicken thingy he ate...

i wasn't fast enough to taste abit...

he finished it first...

amongst my favourite..

unagi jo... and tamago unagi...

yum yum itell you....

farids side dish: unagi tofu...

damn this is good tooo...

the tofu just melts away in your mouth...

some seafood noodle i had...

not bad too...

rather then the typical hot dons'... i tried this thingy...

the usual green tea and watermelon juice for farid..

and coke for me with a slice of lemon with it...

to make it less gassy...

the apeks in the kitchen..
a big thank you to them...
hahahahah...
oooo....
there was one hot waitress serving us...
lupe amik gambar la...

i guess who ever reads this must be wondering where the heck is this place...
well i tell you.. to date this is my fave sushi place...
thanks to Caryn and Liang Zhi...

SUSHI ZANMAI....

sunway pyramid...

they have one in the gardens and one utama too...

do try it...

and tell me me of ur opinion..

price??

hmmmm standard macm sushi king gak lah...

but much nicer sushi's...

next up must try is ..

tenji sushi and sashake sushi....

masjid besi by the shores of putrjaya lake...

last week i had the oppotunity to perform my tarawih at the masjid besi...

the mosque is also known as masjid tuanku mizan zainal abidin....

named after our current yand di-pertuan agung...

the sultan of terengganu...

so here are some images i managed to snap of the mosque...

i must say... i was impressed...

definately was...

comparing his mosque to the putrajaya mosque up the road...

this mosque is better lited...

and the carpet was golek-able...

heheheh...

the entrance

along the walkway to the entrance they had these caligraphy...
am not sure what they mean...
possibly the asmaul husna...

the inside after 8 rakaat of tarawih

the outside

the front of the mosque

more caligraphy

the end...

as the final passes by

so on the eve of every finals that is how my study table would look like...

well most of the time its that way..

yeap if u can see in detail...

its facebook on one screen and slides on the other...

i guess that is why i am not doing well...

:(

oh well.. life goes on...

i've been feeling unblessed lately...

with series of unfortunate events occurring to myself..

at times i wonder if HE even listens to my prayers??

don get me wrong now...

i've not lost faith in HIM..

NO NO NO...

i'd be mad if i was...

BUT...

i am...

loosing faith in myself...

am i worthy of being here today?

am i worthy being who i am today?

am i worthy doing he things i do today?

i'm loosing my own morale confidence...

in every aspect...

i never was like this...

this just ain't me...

where did it all go wrong??

where was the turning that i mistook...

tell me...

as time flies

as time flies,
confusion looms the mind,
its not the truth,
its not the thoughts,
nor was it the tick of the clock..

as time flies,
everything changes,
be it life or lives,
the world is constantly changing,
i may be who i am,
but it does not stop me from changing,
at least for the betterment from who i am,
then change me from who i am..

no one is denying ones wishes,
no one is denying ones selfishness,
all one is asking is for a try,
to make one a better person by being with thee..

here lies a plain white sheet of cloth,
waiting eagerly to be drawn upon,
why so eager?
only HE knows...

along came a stranger,
filled with colours of joy,
walking by the cloth filling it full with joy,

now the stranger is gone,
there'll be no more joy,


though it was just a spark,
its not the end,
please don loose the spark...
with hope it'll light in the end

as the year begins

its been a week since year 2 of my medical studies began...
alhamdulillah for this day to happen...
but not so alhamdulillah for starting it on the wrong foot...
new year, new obstacles, new problems same person...

first off..
respiratory system block...
anatomy classes this time round is with a new lecturer, AsscProf Dr Khin...
nice lady but extremely loud...
i still miss Prof Nasar though!!!
huhuhuhu...
nope not complaining...
hope to buck up soon and shift my gear faster as at the end of this year i'd be having my Pro's... Insyallah...

secondly..
H1N1 is really worrying me...
as i fall under the high risk category cuz i am asthmatic...
though i've not had a serious attack in over a year i am still cautious about it...

thirdlly...
the college has gone nuts...
nuts to the core of it...
why u may ask??
firstly... i am feeling that the students of the college are being used as lab specimens for some genius people to conduct a RM100K research on affective domain...
i am not saying its not a noble thing to do...
but it is in my opinion that we the students are the one who suffers...
first of all...
i don't think think the college as whole is steady enough to be standing on its own...
with everyone having their own agenda and no unity amongst the BIG people... have they ever considered or even thought of the consequences of their actions???
"NURTURING THE PASSION TO CARE"
"lu pikirlah lah sendiri wahai pembaca..."

secondly...
affective domain related still??
what are the objectives of the college??
to produce MEDICAL PROFESSIONALS...
yet their actions speaks otherwise!!!
what do i mean by this...
their implementing this new system which is similar to the NILAM project which we had to go thru during our schooling days...
again i tell u...
their going nuts!!
MAD...

thirdly...
DEMERIT SYSTEM...
yup... ur reading it rite i tell u...
i must say... the coordinators are so free to be judging everyone!!!
peer assesments.. pooop!!

sometime i feel they should change their motto...
from "nurturing the passion to care"
to " nurturing hypocrites of the future"


in other news....
Mom re-did the garden...
gave it a face lift la...
pics on the garden... nanti la eh..

sometimes some things are better left unsaid....

maybe it's true...
the above saying...
be it a lie or the real truth..

some things are better left unsaid..
at least for my part i know that now..
maybe the act of telling the truth was the wrong turn i took in this journey of mine..

regrets??
maybe a lil' on my part of the act..
but to have started or have had a companionship never would i regret..
selfishly thinking the attraction had grown to become an fondness..
maybe it was wrong of me to do so..

or was it the act of rushing?
i never rushed thou into anything..
only the act of pledging one's devotion to thou was all that was said..
and discreetly hoping for affection..

keep hoping is all i will wait for......

of telling the truth and being honest

"honesty is the best policy.."

ever heard of the above saying
i'm sure u have..
some private companies motto or something..
the MACC ke..
somewhere lah..
paling tak pun..
mak u penah cakap..
"tipu dosa.." or "kalu tipu nanti hidung panjang macam pinochio..."
something like that lah..
penah tak?

its true that being honest is a good thing..
yet at times it can bring bad omen to one..

for instance..
in a a marriage..
a husband accidentally got drunk and had a mishap with another lady...
wanting to be honest and truthful, hubby confesses to wife with clear conscience and saying sorry it was a mistake...
only finding to be greeted with an annulment document for breakfast..

another example..
friendship between a boy and a girl..
the girl, wanting to be honest to the guy confessing her real feelings and hope for the guy..
the outcome??
the girl being given the cold shoulder treatment and treated as if they never knew one another, whereas prior to the confession they were "like" best of friends...
the questions are:
-why the sudden change?
-is she ugly or not to his standard?
-is he scared of commitment?

the point is, why the sudden change..
why cant he just be truthful?
is it fair to be leaving the girl pondering where it all went wrong?
or
was it a mistake for her to confess to him?
...

my question to you is...
is honesty really the best policy in the situations above??
is it worth telling the truth and being honest only ending up hurting and getting yourself distraught??

O' someone,
do tell me,
where did it all go wrong?
why the sudden change?

of telling the truth and being honest

-CONTENT SOON TO BE UPLOADED-

ramblings

it's been a while since i actually wrote anything on this site...
apart from the last quote posting..
it's been a month long..

so here are some updates...
where i've been and why i've been neglecting my blog...
first and foremost...
the past month or so i've been busy with my short semester...
alahamdulillah.. it ended last week..
of the 3 papers i sat for i've cleared 2.. with one still pending-viva...
do pray for my success readers...

also the out the month..
i was entangled with an orientation program..
it was for the new foundation students...
nothing much to ramble there..
just another alhamdulillah for its success and thank you to the volunteers...

apart from college issues...
my mind has been boggling and playing with me...
i really cant put into words or maybe i dunno how to put them into words...
its not much or really a problem..
more like inner-self conflict..
its getting me really confused and making more white hairs grow on my head...
buhoo!!!!
maybe i am really loosing it this time...
loosing my mind...
hahahaha...

in other news...
some happy things have been happening to the people around me...
particularly to Farid... congratulations is all i can say...
really am happy for u... hope things work well for u...
its as good as sealed!!!~

i wonder when that would ever happen to me..
hmmm... still praying!!!

-to be continued-

random quote

"tears are meant to flow just as hearts are meant to be broken..."

could it be... they've lost their mind...

warning; U... may find this posting boring.. but i just had to do it... ;)


let me start with a quote i read in todays paper...

MINISTER : ".... PUBLIC FED UP WITH OPPOSITION MPs ANTICS..."

Opp MP: "... SHOULDN'T HAVE STOOPED SO LOW.."


sedar pun mereka rupa-rupanya!!!!!

more fiascoes..
nonsense...
sheer nonsense...
many time i've said it... if not in this blog... i would have verbally said it to friends, family or people close me...
THE OPPOSITION ARE WASTING THE PEOPLES TIME...
yet they dare call themselves representatives of the RAKYAT...
i for goodness sake am a RAKYAT..
ur suppose to be representing me... to be my voice..
yet ur clowning around in the august house...
NONSENSE...
first and foremost...
i must admit the last general election was a real screw up...
for that i onli have one faction to blame...
but the people too are to blame... for their unwise decision...
i'd really like to curse those who elected the MP representing the area i stay...
well i can only curse because i was too young to elect in the last general election...
my question to the people sharing@living in the same constituency as i do...
1.do you know who u elected to represent u in the parliament?
2.have u ever seen him before or heard of him??
3.what qualities or experience does he have in malaysian politics??
4.have we seen him around in the area lately??

ah... screw it... u get the idea what i am trying to say here...
before that let me answer the questions i've just posted in the above to u...
1.yes... i know him as the secret camcorder guy...
2.never!!! onli got to know about him in the news for "some wrong doing"
3.experience... i think NIL.. NONE.. ZERO... i think i am better then him... i am serious...
he's hardly in malaysia.. or WAS hardly in malaysia... running HIS business elsewhere... then out of the blue... BOOOM... UNDILAH SAYA...
poops!!!!!!!!!!!
4. A TOTAL NO!!! dulu, before election sibuk ade kat malaysia nih lepas tuh... HAMPEH!!!

oh well...
from a LAYMEN point of view...
a certain political figure USED "FAMOUS" ppl just to garner cheap support and publicity in the last election...
like the "camera" guy or the ISA man...
look at him now...
sitting in parliament smiling devilishly when his fellow colleagues behave like monkeys...
what has he done or any of his running mates of HIS party done in this one year..???
NOTHING ..
oh well something if u consider all the CHEAP TACTICS like by-elections...
MPs crossing over... now thats another story to tell...
and more nonsese...
of lately... shouting slogans in the AUGUST HOUSE...
what did he do??
sit and smile... did he??
as the chief a paricular BLOC... though he may not be the WHIP..
control your team la...
thats why ur choosen to be LEADER!!!

HAH... PENAT DAN BORING LA.......

common MPs...
wake up and grow up!!!
i am serious here...
cukup la...
treat the parliament with respect...
jangan jadi macam INDIA AND TAIWAN....
DEBATE professionally like a learned civilised man...
serve the people... after all, ur allowances are from the peoples taxes...
yet u dare say the GOVERNMENT are wasting peoples money...
what are u doing??
PUTTING UP A CIRCUS SHOW IN PARLIAMENT!!
DAH LA TUH... TOLONG LA...

haihz...
enough rantings for now...
until the next time.... ciaoz....

1 year on...

alhamdulilla praise to ALLAH that i've finished my first year in Mad-School
though it was not smooth sailing thru out the year with many dugaan along the way...
i'm glad i lasted... not Mad yet... just a Mad-ical student...
with short sem to follow- thats why i said it wasnt smooth sailing...
i'm glad one year has passed...
much to learn from it... hope to not repeat my mistakes in the coming year a learn to be more consistent....

so we ended the year with a batch dinner... more pics on my facebook... nothing here
the following day we had dinner@bbq at Prof H's house to mark the end of our year 1...
amongst those attended the bbq was...
-team m03
-group 2
- and some girls who are renting from prof next year...
so that evening we had so much food... sorry no photos... terlupe bawak camera... cume ade this few shots i took with my phone jer...
the menu for the evening was:
- bbq chicken marinated by Umi-Prof nye Bini... mmg sedap!!!
-pasta...
-potato salad
-tonnes of deliciously fattening dessert all prepapred by Umi
-and sate brought by prof NoorAini- ade ah dalam 2000 lebih cucuk...
(i know U are reading this... i only had 10 cucuk k... but lots of chiken and sweet dessrts)

ok here are some pictures of prof h's kitten...
they're bloody cute and look so enticing that ifeel like bitine their heads off...
so while playing with it we did some crazy things to it too...
like this one below:
Puss in a Crocs
strangled kitten... thats about it really... we left around 11 pm that night...

moving on...
the next day i went to Morib for my Moms Dept Family Day..
her last one apparently...
she has been told to transfer to HKL after working her ASS off to set up the Dept Of Psychiatry in Selayang Hospital over the last 10 years with many achievement to her credit....
pity her....
thats pretty much it really for saturday...

then on sunday, we left Morib and straight away went my dad punye aunts house...
my Kampung la...
rite in the heart of town...
Jalan Ipoh, KUALA LUMPUR...
yes... my kampung hahahah
we were there for my cousin punye anak punye cukur jambul...
senang cakap my anak sedara la...
so allow me to intro u to my nephew....

AIMAN... aka RYAN
sangat mengeramkan...
pipinye yang boyot... dan air liur nye yg sentiasa meleleh...
hahahah....

moving on again..
today i chaired a meeting at college for the july oreintaation progamme..
it didnt take long alhamdulillah....
1 jam lebey skit je...
i hope the dept head got what their supposed to do...
after that was the fun part...
jeng jeng jeng...
cyberjaya has this new joy ride...
well atleast i find it joyful..
hahahah
yea...
i took my maiden ride in the stunt drivers car...
hahahaha...
well.... for short distance...
it was worth while considering i got a cake after that...
eheheheh...

of 10 i'd rate the ride as 5...
the driver can have my trust to drive me around next time...
i have enough confidence... bole la put my life in the drivers hands..;)
hahahah


ok la...
cukup la tuh...
nanti pikir ape lagi nak tulis...
for now...
i'm gonna start writting my shopping list or update from my things to get in 2009 and plan something with the boys...

U... abes exam.. nanti laen plan plak k...
study smart....

dah la tu... posting da abes dah ni...
gi study k...
hahahahah

battlefield

Don't try to explain your mind
I know what's happening here
One minute it's love
And suddenly it's like a battlefield

One word turns into a war
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down
My world's nothing when you don't
I'm not here without a shield
Can't go back now

Both hands tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
Why we gotta fall for it now

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield? (x2)
Why does love always feel like..

Can't swallow our pride,
Neither of us wanna raise that flag, mhmm
If we can't surrender then we both gonna lose what we had, oh no

Both hands tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
I don't wanna fall for it now

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield? (x2)

I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor
I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor
I guess you better go and get your...

We could pretend that we are friends tonight (oh-oh-oh)
And in the morning we'll wake up and we'll be alright
Cause baby we don't have to fight
And I don't want this love to feel like..

A battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield,
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield

I guess you better go and get your armor...

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for (fighting, fighting for)
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield? (x2)

I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor
I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor

Why does love always feel like...
Why does love always feel like...
A battlefield, a battlefield..

I never meant
to start a war
Don't even know
What we're fighting for

I never meant
to start a war
Don't even know
What we're fighting for

KAK LONG..
I'D LIKE TO DEDICATE THIS SONG TO U...
I KNOW U'RE GOING THRU SOME SHITS..
U'LL WIN THE BATTLE!!!

double post!!! from org yang malas

ok so the pictures below are pictures of the cookies i baked...
it didn't turn out too bad actually..
what i thought was suppose to be normal cookies was actually soft cookies...
Miss C, am i rite? soft cookies??
not lemau for sure or masuk angin..
anyways...
i tried baking them or baked them 1 week ago...
it was on a sunday after mothers day celebration..
everyone got home and passed out after pigging out during hi-tea...
but yours trully didn't... i came home and started turning the kitchen into the war zone...
all my mom had to say was... "... FIQ, dont burn my kitchen ok.."
true enough i didn't.. :)
it was about 4 something when i started the ruckus in the kitchen...
my maid dah geleng kepala... thinking i am going to mess up the kitchen...
so i took out the recipe that Jo gave..
i diligently followed step by step and measured the eveything carefully with a lil' of modification here and there...
so here u are... :
the batter..
it looks abit like cat shit i admit but taste super-duper good...

on the tray before it goes into the oven
halfway baking...
see it does look like flatten cat-poop...
or melted cat-poop...
and the final product...
i must say i am proud of myself...
i can bake cookies now...
it taste good too...
anywho...
those who passed out just now... woke up to the smell of the cookies...
the minute the first tray come out, my youngest bro syabil officiated it...
hahahah...
ok enough of cookies story...

lets move on...
another cookies story...
but with regards to Miss C...

happy birthday to myself!!
i am officially legal..
i am 21.. yess...
the big two-one...

Alhamdulillah is the first and foremost thing due here...
thanks to HIM i am able to celebrate this day...
and all the thank you's to the people who wished and celebrated my birthday..

thank you to mak and ayah..
i know u guys don read my blog...
but to those who does..
see... i appreciate my parents ok!!!

next..
to my batch mates...
thank you for the wonderful surprise.. in Dungun...
i got myself partly buried and had flour and sand thrown at...
no pics here.. :(
hope to have it on facebook...
and guys... i am waiting for my sunglasses replacement ok!!!


last but not least...
Miss C...
thank you for hanging over the phone on the eve of my birthday...
thus, delaying my birthday present from the guys...
and being the first to wish me HAPPY BIRTHDAY...
thank you for the company and dessert last night...
the cupcakes is super-duper sweet...
i liked it... i think i finished a quarter after that...
and for the present...
now i think i can start something new... writting to U.. ;)


so here you go... the gambar below are the cupcakes Miss C got for me...
nampak dah rompong tu maksudnye dah slamat la!!!


MISS C: THANK YOU ONCE AGAIN FOR EVERYHTING MOST OF ALL THE COMPANY...

political fiasco on the rise??

has anyone read the papers lately?
FREE ISA DETAINEE.. lucky fella Najib released him..
ZOO IN THE PERAK DUN...

so first thing first...
i've been reading in the papers in the last few days that someones wife has been going around in replacement of the husband to discharge his duty on his behalf.. well done to that.. but she said she is not able to serve her husbands constituents to best best level..
ok enough of that...
what ia mtrying to say here is..
people, be wise when electing your WAKIL RAKYAT...
CHOOSE WISELY...
don follow your emotions too much...
the morale here is, if he wasnt released...
he would have resigned thus a by-election would be needed...
elections= peoples tax money and time!!!
u get what i mean...
yet u ppl complain the governnment of today waste publics money...
u want new government...
see now their not even the government yet their already wasting money??
pikirlah sendiri wahai pembaca...

next...
has the reps in perak lost their mind??
i've seen indian parliament throw chairs...
taiwan throwrin punches and books and foul language across the august hall..
but then i thot to myself..
what the heck their uncivilized ppl..
but yesterday it happened in my very own country...
haihz...
it wasnt the parlaiment but the DEWAN UNDANGAN NEGERI.
HMMM...
banyaak aku nak kutuk nih tapi takot la...
kena tangkap or masuk court plak....
anyways...
what i wanna say is...
dah kalah tu kalah je la...
org sendiri pon x percaye dekat kamu...
ape nak buat...
sultan lagi la...
die bukan calang2 sultan..
he was a former lawyer, judge. lord president...
if he doesnt want u means xnak la...
ni masuk dewan gadoh2 macam budak tadika...
lepas tuh rosak kan harta benda dewan...
duit rakyat gak tu...


ok la cukup la for now...
i just feel upset with this kind of ppl...
grow up!!!
u r our leaders!!! be it G or O...
set the rite example...
forgive me for this boring posting..

list of thing to do

after exam i shall...
1. balik rumah pj tido kao-kao
2. tawaf one utama macam buat umrah
3. tengok movie yang belom ditengok
4. survey phone baru
5. beli perfume sebab dah habis
6. masak cookie-- cuba

tapi sebelum tuh...
mohd syafiq azman...
exam finals jumaat ni!!!!

of C, COOKIES and ALINA... hmmm

i was over at Jo's the other day to have dinner with him and a bunch of his friends...
he called all of us together as he was leaving back to US the next day...
actually monday, he was going to singapore first transit for a few days and meet up with JAZZDAMAN before going off...
so back to the dinner story...
we had some pizza, meat loaf, mash potatoes, and risottos...
surprisingly Jo cooked all of them all of them..
they're are his recipes he learnt and tried during his 8 months tenure in the states...
so credit goes to jo mostly and jesh for helping him and me too...
so i've learnt how to bake cookies now...
i love COOKIES...
YUMMM...
the above pic is the mixture...
C, if u're reading this...
it's not a premix...
its freshly mixed-if there is such a thing...
and the below is the first attempt...

check it out it's partly carcinogenic...
not our fault...
jo set the oven wrong....
but the products that came after this was much better and taste good too...
thanks to Jo's mom for telling him to correct the oven setting... ;)
and after my final and time to come i shall be baking it myself...
if it works out nicely i'll share it with everyone...
but if otherwise...
C, U dare try it or not?? hahahah

meet ALINA AZLAN...
me new girlfriend...
after being dumped by her sister ALYA AZLAN...
so yea...
my new buah hati ALINA :)

see don't we look great together...

hahahah...

k la... enough crap...

she is my cousin... ;)

but... but...

ALINA is still my DEAR...

C, were u chomel like this??

C=chomel.. ;)

REMINDER TO SELF: FRIDAY IS FINALS AND I AM DOING THIS SHIT...

of looks, attraction and love

so how important is someones looks??
well in most cases i believe it is important especially when it comes to professional matters regarding careers and what not...
i've learn something from DrS... first impression last..
so wen u meet someone new look good so after that if u look selekeh pon xpe...
that would me my literal translation of DrS punye quote...

ok then there is this other quote..
or if U are reading this... someone punye principles..
DRESS TO IMPRESS..
i know it sounds super-duper vein...
but humans are very superficially judgmental..
no??
but if anyone is able to see U beyond that...
that means something...

LOVE...
what is it??

it is finally gone

11 freaking long years of treatment and it's finally off..
i officialy am no longer a braces nerd anymore..
well not really nerd la.. but yea..
ok...
on record i had the permanent braces for 5.5 years...
yeap... thats how long i've had it on..
all this while i thot onli for 3 plus2 years but when the dr told me...
damn was i shocked...
prior to that i had a removable appliance before fixing the permanent one...
oh well...
just another stage in my life which is long over due...
now i can walk pass metal detectors undetected...
hahahah
now i don have to make the trip to Klang that frequent anymore...
but then i feel like i've lost something of me...
anywho..
my mouth feels lighter...
makan burger and steak lepas ni takde sekat2 lagi...
i know yucks...
hahaha...
oh well life goes on...
alhamdulilllah..
i know have straight teeth...
no more jongang like Mr Os...
thank you Dr...
and...
of course... thank you God... as all good things are from him...

close to a month since the last update...

yes not a month yet...
hahaha...
i've got lots to write actually...
really...
from political issues, academic and private personal issues...
soon to come...
insyallah...

i've lost it

i'm gone...
KAPUTS...
POOOFF...
SWOOSH...

i'm to young to be having midlife crisis...
i wanna live older then 42 please GOD...
so Jeen... bad diagnosis...
i dunno whats wrong with me too...
in my opinion...
the prognosis: bad

something is wrong with me

i've not been able to sleep at hnite this pass week or two...
i'm not lying... though i spend a whole dah at college i just don feel tired at nite...
my body has gone PHYSIOLOGICALLY wrong...
my mind is MENTALLY kaputs...
i need help...
really i do...
but i just cant speak out...
i don't think anyine believes me...
just look at the time of this posting...

oh god help me...

aarggh

i am loosing it...
i am..
why?
i dunno why..

the view from the 86th floor of klcc tower 1 looks great

why?

i've not been myself this past few dayS..

at least thats what i've been feeling..

i feel that everything is worthless..

i really dunno what has gotten into me..

could be studies?

could it be life?

maybe it's just me..

i feel the world is rejecting me..

i feel myself rejecting me...

why?

why?

why?

i hate this feeling..

it's eating me from the inside!!

where did i go wrong?

what have i done wrong?

tell me life..

tell me world..

what is it that u have against me?

is it u?

maybe it's u?

no, u?

aargh...

FUCK LIFE!!! 

only now i understand... kal ho naa ho

Life changes its beauty all the time

Sometimes it's a shade, sometimes life is sunlight

Live every moment here to your heart's content

The time that is here may not be tomorrow

One who loves you whole-heartedly

It is difficult meet that person

If there is someone like that somewhere

That person is more beautiful than all

Grab onto that (person's) hand

He or she may not be so gracious tomorrow

Live every moment here to your heart's content

The time that is here may not be tomorrow

Taking the shadow of your eyelashes, when someone comes near

You try to reason with your crazy heart

Your heart just goes on beating

But think, that which is here now

That story may not be here tomorrow

Life changes its beauty all the time

Sometimes it's a shade, sometimes life is sunlight

Live every moment here to your heart's content

The time that is here may not be tomorrow

The time that is here may not be tomorrow

negara kanak-kanak kecil bermain api

 

duli yang maha mulia king khairil hakim

menteri pertahanan: "rentap" farid
menteri penerangan dan pemakan-nan: pojie

pengerusi MIC Negara Kanak-kanak Kecil Bermain Api: "Macha" Al-Syafiqq

bendahara kanan King: Acaap Bugdet Handsome

dedicated to my fellow penguins

biscuits by mcvitie's dedicated to myself... i've not had them in over 10 years... i last had them back in UK... 1 small peice cost rm 1.50 here damn... but it sure is nice... and yes the background picture is haley james scott... don't ask why... hahahaha... i am addicted to one tree hill... no i'm not gay... it's just a good show..

if...

read the title carefully...

it states IF...

if i were to get married, i wanna wife who;

-is lawyer

-maybe a is doctor

-a doctor lawyer would be great...

if i were to have a child,  i wanna;

-son

-maybe a daughter

-one of each would be good...

- the child must be likE JAMIE LUCAS SCOTT

I REMIND U AGAIN... IF...

I wanna know the answer....

I never knew that you would be the one

to come along and snatch my heart and run

Away from me with no explanation why

I never knew what we had would die

All I wanna do is hide away

From all the hurt and pain of yesterday

Can't you see the tears, the hurt inside

I never knew, please tell me why??

Oh why did our love have to go away?

I don't know how, I don't know when

All I know is I'll never love this way again!! 

All I wanna do is hide away

From all the hurt and pain of yesterday....

-i never knew-

-deborah cox-

if u are reading this, please answer me. i know it's been ages i still dunno why it happened. u know WHO U ARE...

things to wish for / to buy this year.... hmmmm

1:bowling shoes @ set

2: blackberry bold (don't ask why)

3: a speaker dock for my ipod...

4: more to add... soon...