feeling glad out of the sadness from the past....

i took a slow drive back from a friends house for dinner...
reminiscing on the past and predicting the future...

the drive made me more thankful of what The Lord has given me in the past...
or even made me go thru...
amongst them are my relationship issues...

big issue this one is...
BUT...
as time passes i am able to rationalize of the past...
and accept what has happened...

first off...
she may had been an ideal girl... BACK THEN...
but i am glad things never worked out...
it surprises me to be knowing her now to be a totally changed person...
attitude change, behavior and etc...
so yea...
i don't mind not even knowing her now...

the second...
made a great company...
got along so fine and it pretty much convinced me it could work out...
but again...
things didn't go as planned...
though much effort was put in place to make it work...
if fate is not on your side then it just falls to pieces...

last but not least...
the third...
hahhahhahhah...
none...
never had a third one...
though there was a perspective candidate...
it didn't get thru either...
i am glad though...

having gone thru all this shits of the past really scares me to step into the future...
i at times wonder whether there is anyone who has stopped changing...
you get the idea right...
the saying "people change..." till when are they gonna change??
now comes to mind the questions...

WHAT IF?
1=they change their attitude and become someone of an unpleasant attitude?
2=they say they love u today and 10years down the road say it to someone else?
3=...

another question which made me thought...
if The Almighty has made pairs for everyone on this earth...
how would i know the pair i am matched with or match myself with is meant for me...
what if my pair was supposed to be Jenn Aniston... -Pfft... stupid i know-
when will i ever be paired??
hahahahahah....
so much more to be asked and answered when it come to relationship...

as for the future...
i ought to think i would be happy as i am now...
though there are times when i do feel the need for company...
there are always your friends... yet its not the same as to having a significant other...