for the time is now....

being away from city has somewhat been a blessing for my emotions...
though it partly tormented by just being away...
but the already hurt and confused part of my emotions took it as sometime off to decide on things...

well...
if ur reading this posting and have read all my other recent blabbing..
this is to sum it all up...

its not wrong to say that i did some soul searching...
as i felt that i was at a crossroad of things...

i would say the 2 months away was really meaningful...
yes i was in a dilemma..
of having to decide on certain things...
needing to choose between two...
at the same time....
having to consider my feelings...
others feelings too...
risking friendship ties...
and lots more at stake...
it was hard...

it kind of got me a lil distracted...
but i guess...
HE has somehow made it easy...
i need not hurt anyone...
or at least i think so...
lets hope i am right...

things are gonna be different now...
i'm going back to a place that i'm familiar with...
to a territory where i once roamed like a stallion...
to a place where i knew everything...
but...
that was years ago...
when i rode around like a stud...
knowing things in and out at every nook and cranny...

its about to start all over again...
but with a different twist...